I have not seen my mother for about 9 months

dears I have asked you many times about problem with my mother that she doesn't respect me although I am 56 years old & couldn't forgive her even I think sometimes I hate her recently it is about 9 months even I haven't call her in one city I need your help urgently please reply my question if I be regret in future and cannot forgive myself what shall I do but rightnow if I see her I will be suffered all the time at lest I don't see her and try to forget her but I am afraid of the time that i will lose her for ever hectically I am confused and have challenge with myself please help me thanks

Send her flowers, postcards and little gifts, but do not talk to her or see her, if she doesn't respect you and make you feel bad. Arrange with somebody else to take care of her, if she needs help.