Lonelyness

Since i returned from a 4 month trip tp Africa my life has changed. I don't seem to enjoy my family, friends or home life anymore. I find some people who i previously thought were the best people in my life to be completely draining now. I have got a dependency to Marjhana which i feel isn't the problem but may well be but at this stage i don't want to give it up because i feel it is a blanket. When my friends come round we smoke which kinda helps the awkwardness which i feel now. I am lost in every aspect. I feel that i don't know what to do with my life and i don't feel that i could ever find a partner. I'm only 21 but all my close friends have serious boyfriends which is another reason why i feel like i should distance myself from them. They are unwilling to come out with me on search for guys etc, which is understandable but should they not support me as much as i support them. Anyway as you can probably tell i don't really know what i feel anymore which is why i am so down. I do have a job, the job i left when i went to Africa which i don't enjoy that much. My dream would be to go back to Africa but i don't want to go alone.

Smoking mariuana will destroy your life in the long run. Stop using it for your own sake. More information.

If you go alone to Africa, you will meet new friends there.