Crossdressing and shemale feelings female dominance

hello pls help me
ive been crossdressing for a few years I am intrested more in changing my sex or feel to become a shemale in future which I dnt wanna happen
I have a good family and dey care for me but I fear these thoughts will oneday take over and destroy me and my maleness
I also feel like becoming a slave to some female mistress
so pls help me I dnt wanna dis happen to me