Marriage, depression, loss of libido

I am married, but my husband isn't what I expected. He is not abusive, but I still feel depressed. He lectures me like a parent, very critical of everyone, he doesn't like to have the same kind of fun that I do (not partying) just where we laugh and do simple stuff. He says bad things about me in front of other people which is very embarrassing. He orders me around more. The worst part for me is he'll do some of these things and then act like none of it happend and expect sex or for me to be loving still. After this I usually feel depressed about my relationship. We have a son that we both love and adore, so I don't want to divorce or even bring it up because I am training to become a teacher and since I don't have a job I won't get custody, plus I don't want to take him away from my husband either, he's a good dad. Neither of us could handle not seeing him everyday. I don't know how to improve my mental feeling toward my marriage because I am okay in everything else. I don't feel doom or anything. I feel a lack in my libido as well, and I'm wondering if it is from the lack of connection between my husband and I. I just need some help on improving my outlook, or my marriage, or my libido. I just want us to be "in love" and act in love, and others to be resentful of how in love we are. Is that reasonable? My bro and sis in laws have this kind of love and it's always what I dreamed of. I just want to have fun, humor, and laughter in my life always. I am a lighthearted person who loves with all her heart and wants to be loved the same in return. It's all about the little things. I trust him he would never cheat nor I. Is there a product, or something I can do to lift my spirits?? Help please, I need someone to talk to or help me. Thanks!!