Mentally abusing husband

Dear Mrs. Palme

I am in a bad situations sorry for the spelling I am not very good at it. I am 20 years old and have a baby girl and am married to a man the mentaly abuses me I am going to name the names he calls me, Stupid bitch, F***er, Duum he say I am a Bad mom but how does he know hes never around he's alway hunting and does not pay no mind to his daoughter or me all he does is treat me like a maid and a peace of junk I want to leave most of the time but I want to try to make it work but I am to the point I can't anymore he said to me this morning that I F*** up everything I could F*** up the world worse then it is now See before I met matt My husband I was gutsy I was in the Millitary and was a pretty good rancked I gave all that up for a man I though that loved me but now I'm the total oposit of gutsy or happy I'm far from it I'm starting the think that everything he say about me is true but I don't know. I am trying so hard to be what he wants me to be but wat I really want is to be me I was never perfect when he met me and thats the way I liked it because I know the only one that is perfect is God, he told me this morning before he left he did not say I love you bye he said If I did not find a papper he wanted he was going to bet my ass. I'm to the point I don't care I use to be an artest I could paint the sky but now I don't even want to try to get up or do everyday things. I can't take it anymore but the problem is I don't know how to leave and really don't want to leave but I can't deal with his crap the rest of my life what should I do?