In love with a person I met two years ago

Hi
I'm in love with a person that I met with two years ago. We were never in a relationship, we never even acknowledged that we were attracted to each other but as friends we talked a lot and enjoyed each other's company very much. Since, I was in a relationship at that time I couldn't really say anything but just talking to that person a few times made me realize that I couldn't continue my current relationship and I ended it. The break-up itself was very traumatic since I don't date and that was my first time in a relationship and I was technically engaged to that person to be married. I still feel extremely guilty about breaking that person's heart. I never thought I could be unloyal and it's just a terrible terrible feeling; still I won't go back to that person (eventhough I still care for that person) because I'm still in love with my friend who by the way I haven't any contact with for almost a year now. I'm completely obssesed with my friend. I feel extremely helpless because I tried looking for other people that I might be attraced to but can't seem to find anyone attractive enough to get over my friend. Sometimes the depression's so bad that I would stay in bed for days and everything seems useless and pointless. The only time I can concetrate a little when school's in session. Probably because I like my major and I have lots of friends and I've always done good in school so I guess it keeps me busy and takes my mind off things a bit. But, as soon as I'm alone it's a nightmare. I just can't seem to get over him. I feel completley helpless and it angers me that my friend is probably living a healthy normal happy life when I'm stuck in this emotional warp obssesing over someone that I was never even in a relationship with.

Contact him and tell him that you would like to meet him again. For the moment you are in love with your imagination about him.

Depression should be treated. See a psychiatrist.