I can't afford therapy and I don't feel like I can talk to my family. I've been feeling pretty desperate lately. A couple of years back I started cutting, which didn't take but a year after that I tried to commit suicide. I was hospitalized for one month, and I've been "fine" since then-about 3 years ago. Well, a couple of months ago, I started cutting again, and I'm using box cutting knives. I think almost every part of my body has layers of scars over them. I'm scared where this might lead to. I don't think it'll lead to suicide like it did before, but then it only took one extra "bad" emotion last time that threw me over the edge to committing suicide. I'm really worried about this. I just don't think I can talk to anyone I know about this, because I'm not sure how they'll react to it.