im 12 yrs old and all i think about is how much i hate my life and i think my mom loves her boyfriend more than she does with me and my 9yr old brother. i cry myself to sleep all the time and i cut myself because it helps me with my pain but now i keep thinking about ending my life, i think about suicide all the time, i scream all the time and when im pissed off i start throwing things it feels like i cant control my anger at all.sometimes i just wish i was never alive. i sumtime take pills whenever i dont have any drugs with me to get high or to calm down. but i dont know what to do to get help. so if u can help me or be my friend and tell me what i should do.<P>
Show this letter to your mother. It is your parents responsibility to give you love and a good upbringing. Never take drugs anymore. Lie down and accept your feelings instead, even if they are terrible. Go to school and study as hard as possible for your future.
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