i've been in a relation ship for two years. before then i did not know much about loving, or sex. i was married for 30 years to someone i never loved. then over a period of seeing/talking briefly to a man who shopped at my work place, we started dating. from the start i knew he was married. there's many hang ups i need to get over, due to my past. he apparently is "permitted" to have relationships outside his marriage. in fact his wife has seen us together and it does not bother her. he will and has told me he would not leave her, that she is a good woman, but is in love with me. i have tried many times to break this off, but it's like an addiction. i can't go for long before i am on the phone begging him to come back. what he offers is love, commitment, but he has an entirley other life which comes first. i know what i should do, but am not able to.