Some problem

Hi, I don't know why but when i reveal my deepest of feelings to other people they tend to start being jealous of me. I had this issue quite a few times and i can't open up myself to the outside world. If i do, i find people envying me or feeling bad about me in some way. My family members also try to convey this message to me that somehow i am faulty and i feel so much ashamed in front of them. I have a distorted self-image and am not clear about my identity and personality. I have a deep fear of being judged for my feelings as well. Some people said i was gay when i revealed my feelings and went close to them. I am a bit girly but i not gay. Is there something wrong with me?

You have not found the right people yet. Look for new friends and do not give up until you have found friends who acceept you the way you are and appreciate your personality.