Dear ... Expert
Im not attention deprived, but i feel sometime that no one cares about me. sometimes i wish that i was hurt severley so i was put in a hospital so then no one would not forget about me. Ive never actually thought of hurting myelf, but ive actually WANTED to be in a hospital so i would get more attention. Ive wanted to be hurt. Is there something wrong with me ? I've wished so long to have everyone be like "oh maria! im so proud" and make a BIG deal about it. Right now i feel like the most selfish person in the world. I want to feel better. And as i feel that no one cares, i keep my feelings inside. I dont want to tell anyone that i actually no and love, i dont want them to think im mental. i need help, trying to not feel like crap everyday. I need help because int he back of my mind everyday, i want to be the one, the one that makes my parents and everyone around me proud, I want to be the one that they cant take their eyes off of. Please, help me.