Cannot understand myself

Hi,
I am a 26 yrs old lady and have problems in understanding myself. I feel as if I live on extremes, either I am very sensitive or very insensitve. This makes me very unpredicatble and react to the same situation differently. I'll be surprised at myself and cant find a reason for my actions.

Pretty reacently I've comitted to an illicit affair, instead of correcting it I did the same mistake again. Though I am conscious of my actions, I have little guilt.This has upset me a lot, coz I am not that kind of a girl. I looked at the whole situation in another angle, that there was something that I should learn and it happened for my own good.

I feel a lot of change within myself. I am not able to express the whole thing very well but I know I need help.

Thx

Would it be possible for you to start psychotherapy? That would be a way for you to learn to understand yourself. Your symptoms can be caused by several different psychiatric disorders, but to get a reliable diagnosis, you need to talk to a psychiatrist or psychotherapist.