Whats wrong with me

I feel an intense desire too cut myself very deeply
its a crazy feeling when this happens its like im crawling under my skin and I think that a nice deep cut will feel very satisfying its like i'm drivin too do it

I feel a strong desire too cut someone across there gut and watch there intestines fall out too the floor
this is not so much a drive too do it but if I had the opportunity I would take advantage of it... its just the way I want too kill someone

I feel a crazy desire too rape someone
this one is mostly a sexual fantasy but sometimes it becomes a drive as well and I have too refrain from raping whatever female is there... consensual sex is the farthest from my mind in these times and is even a turn off... I just want too completely dominate a female that doesn't want too be dominated

I feel a desire too rip my skull open to set my soul free
this is by far the most intense drive that I feel.. its like I want to just rip my skull open in the back and I even put my hands there and scratch at my scalp fairly violently and sometimes ripping small amounts of hair out but it feels like my soul feels trapped inside of my body and is frantically scratching at the inside of my head to get out

I feel a strong desire too be hurt by a female; either beaten or cut
this one is strange it often goes with cutting myself but sometimes its on its own and is sometimes a drive and other times just a fantasy and its definitely sexually based but not completely because often its not accompanied by any sexual desire at all