Am I wrong or is my father wrong?

I've had this problem since I turned 19 I guess. I started getting really depressed, gained weight and of course became super miserable. Every time my dad started talking to me about it, he would mention the fact that he left my mom and us (my brother and I). He would say that I had to let go of the past. And I just noticed after 5 years, that he's the one who brings out the problem. The reason why I'm depressed actually has nothing to do with him. I'm depressed because I cannot find the meaning to my life, I have no idea what I'm supposed to do with it. But every time he sees me sad, or hears something negative coming from me. He starts telling me to let go of the past, that he had a father that was much worse than him, that he had it really tough. Even though I didn't mention anything about him! Or anything about the fact that he left! Because to be honest, it doesn't really bother me anymore. It is only when he mentions it that I even start thinking about it. He's really killing me, because the one who can't let go of the past is him, I think that he feels so guilty about what he did, that he thinks its the source of all my problems. So he yells at me, won't let me talk, and I end up so frustrated and angry, thinking it would be so much better if I didn't exist. I don't know what to do, I'm so sick of it all. Am I wrong? I don't know anymore. If anyone has some honest insights, I'd love them.

Myself have been misunderstood ALOT, but i doesent really care what other people say anymore about what to do and not to do,well, its good to listen sometimes about what people say of coarse, but you learn what to listen to and what to not listen to :)and since everyone is different you should find your own way, and you should suprise him and just say that its not cause of the past your sad, its cause lack of meaning in life, then he wont be able to yell so much that you cant say anything...I know that can be hard of coarse...hmm...yell back when his yelling, just yell out what it is, he will be quiet i hope when he realizes what you said...
and about meaning in life, its hard to get one really, i still dont have any, but its kinda relaxing tough :) for example, if you have a job, the job is you, and if you loose it, you will loose yourself on the way, so find something positive without having a meaning with life, so if you lose your other meaning you still have one :)
and if you gained weight and dont like it, (dont know if you already have done anything about it tough) go to the gym or something and make it your goal to lose weight ^^ but remember: dont lose to much! both males and females who likes girls, at least most of them, likes some size you know ;) much softer and pleasuring to touch then all bones :)

Hi Debbie,

Thank you for your very honest answer. I did talk to my dad, I told him it wasn't him. He said, "you should get a job." That's all he said. But your response made me happy, thank you so much. I already am doing something about the weight and I'm doing great. But you know depression can make you either eat very little or eat a lot. So you have to try harder than a lot of people. But I'm doing well. Thank you again for your answer, I am very happy someone could give me some words of encouragement.

My best,

Gaby.