Re: Am in love with my close Friend!!! pls advise

Hiii Guys. Myself Aman and am from India. I am also somewhat in the same state as lovesick is. I am also in love with my friend. I met her 3 years before through orkut. We became friends so fast and at first I thought she is not genuine. But I dunno wen we bcame gud friends n i started sharing everything with her. I always wonder y am I tellin everythin that happens in my life. But I neva realised i luved her. I realised it only when she went for her graduation to a college far from our place. After that i got her online only once or twice a month. I missed her sooo much and i was feelin sooo sooo bad. When i had a very bad time in my life she was the only one who gave me confidence. There was a problem with my job and when everybody blamed me for losin it, she told me to try for job outside india. I did what she said and now i have a far better job that i had in india. Now am in dubai and working as a netork engineer here. Now i feel like i want her and she is the girl made for me. But if I tell her that i love her am afraid she ll get upset and stop all contacts with me. I think so because she always says that She hates Guys who start the relationship as a friend and after some months say i luv you. I dont wanna be one among such guys. Dats why i dint tell her till nw. But yesterday she came online and we where talking something and she told me that her parents started searching groom for her. I felt soo sad but still i said its a gud news and if the guy is good u proceed. She dint say anything. Then i told her that I love someone and am not proceeding because that girl is my friend. Suddenly she asked " Do u mean its me".. I asked if its u i kno u ll never accept me.So its not u... I dunno y i told like dat. I feel like am cheating her. Am thinking about stopping all contacts with her.. It doesnt matter if i din get her love.But i cant lose her friendship. She is tooo gud... and I love her soo much.. So i dun wanna hurt her... What should i do.. Please gimme a reply!!