I checked the transgender section and TRYING to read through it left me very frustrated that I just wanted to scream. SO, I apologize if it's mentioned there, which it probably was. First off, I'm male. My childhood felt different. First off, I grew up with mostly girl stuff; I was expected to be a girl and so I grew up with girls stuff. I think I was about 8 before my first boy toy. Next, I was raised by my mother and around other woman and no active father figure around, he was an excessive workaholic and I literally never saw him he was always at work or out of town. I rarely had male friends growing up and those relationships we never stable; I tend to automatically distrust other males. All my life, I have daydreams of being a woman. Not necessarily in a sexual way, in fact rarely in a sexual way. I always have done things, especially when I was much younger, I'd stand in front of a mirror and tuck my genitals between my legs to see what I'd look like as a woman. I have a thing for women's names and I feel envious because, in my eyes, women can be beautiful and men can't. This has always made me feel lonely, even when I shouldn't be, I feel like I'm out of place. Things I have seen or read, don't seem to help direct me. I feel lost, and confused, and I really want an idea of what to do or is this normal?