I feel like I don't know who I am.

I checked the transgender section and TRYING to read through it left me very frustrated that I just wanted to scream. SO, I apologize if it's mentioned there, which it probably was. First off, I'm male. My childhood felt different. First off, I grew up with mostly girl stuff; I was expected to be a girl and so I grew up with girls stuff. I think I was about 8 before my first boy toy. Next, I was raised by my mother and around other woman and no active father figure around, he was an excessive workaholic and I literally never saw him he was always at work or out of town. I rarely had male friends growing up and those relationships we never stable; I tend to automatically distrust other males. All my life, I have daydreams of being a woman. Not necessarily in a sexual way, in fact rarely in a sexual way. I always have done things, especially when I was much younger, I'd stand in front of a mirror and tuck my genitals between my legs to see what I'd look like as a woman. I have a thing for women's names and I feel envious because, in my eyes, women can be beautiful and men can't. This has always made me feel lonely, even when I shouldn't be, I feel like I'm out of place. Things I have seen or read, don't seem to help direct me. I feel lost, and confused, and I really want an idea of what to do or is this normal?

You have a right to be yourself. Not all men are very masculine. Talk to people you trust and try to find out what you prefer to do with your life. Is psychotherapy an option for you?

Any psychotherapist whom you trust, and who understands your problems, will be good.