i am a 16 year old male. i have a number of issues going on for quite a while. i cannot think normally anymore, like my thoughts do not get complete in my head. i struggle and feel under pressure when doing things i like such as listening to songs i like, watching shows i like, reading a book i like, i can tell that i like them, but i just cant enjoy them, and then i keep thinking about them the whole time; so that when i do one of them, i think about how to fix the problem and how im struggling to enjoy it rather than to actually ENJOY it. like when i read a novel, i cant imagine it as vividly as i once did because i keep on thinking why dont i imagine it well anymore and i try to fix it. i dont even feel lust when i watch porn anymore. i dont feel comfortable talking to people anymore, most of it has to do with eye contact. i even struggle to laugh at things that i know are hilarious because i think about it too much. i think i suffer from polar disorder and depression. the worst part of all, i KNOW if i only stop thinking about the problem, it will go away, but it's not that easy. the problem is EXTREMELY difficult to explain, i tried my best to explain it and i know im not explaining it correctly enough. i know it's a long question, but i really need your help.
p.s. when the problem happens, i become sweaty, have a hard time breathing, pulse accelerates, and i feel a lump in my throat.
Letter from a reader: Its really going to be all right.
Also try and get out and get some fresh air/ exercise in the morning/ evening. Keep busy and do not spend too much time thinking, rather spend it 'doing things/ talking with friends/ family'.
Keep your parents and other adults in your family, whom you trust, into confidence.
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