I don’t know how to begin. I’ve been a good student all my life, in the top 5 of my class consistently and many a times even the topper of the class. I’ve studied at even one of the premier institutions of my country. My parents always gave importance to studies only and hence I could not develop myself in extra-circular activities. I was bullied many a times by my friends, but I never replied because I thought that it would hurt them as the way it hurts me. I sat for all the companies (though in my chosen field only) during campus placements, but did not get selected on my own. Everyone including my friends and my profs said that it was because of me speaking the truth always. I admit that I couldn’t speak lies even though I need (I would have spoken lies but very less). Finally I got a job with the help of one of my prof’s recommendation, but getting a job on someone’s recommendation is against my principles. Since my family’s economical position was not that good, I joined the company. But within no time I felt suffocating there. I’ve always felt that even though I’ve done the right thing my boss tries to find fault with me. Everyone else feels that I’m good and satisfactory but not him. Gradually I felt like I will die if I remain there (everyday I used to fear that my boss would scold me for no reason and used to run away from him), and I ran away from the job. I’m tired of living up to other’s expectations from me. I tried to find out what interests me and found that there is nothing. I used to eat well before but now I don’t. The only positive thing is I don’t want to die, but I don’t know what to do even. I’m sitting idle at home watching movies and sleeping (not even eating regularly) for more than 3 months. Can you help me out? Sorry for such a long question.
You might be suffering from a depression. SSRI medicines and Cognitive therapy are scientifically proven cures against depressions. Good that you left that nasty boss. Do not live up to other people's expectations, if you do not want to. Find your own way in life instead.