I was into a relationship for 3yrs with a girl 4yrs elder to me. No one know about it. We belong from the same place. Our Parents know each other very well. I used to call her my cousin sister as she was elder to me and i stayed with her and her sister when i came for my further studies in a new city, where she was staying for some times. Our parents agreed to it. Due to family matters we cant marry each other. That was clear between before we stepped in this relation. We shared everything-Mental, physical etc. But now, on february 19,2007 she got married with the guy who pretend to be her good friend and nothing else.The guy was the main concern behind every Clashes we had in our relationship. As i cant disclose my relation to anyone else and so in depression and frustation i started taking CODIENE Cough syrup to get out the depressing sitution. Now it has become a habit.
Now she dont talk to me. Nor she SMS me nothing. She dont know where i am, how i am etc., though we stay in same place. I havent seen for last 6 months. I really miss her a lot. " IF U LOVE OR CARE SOMEONE, U CANT SEE THAT PERSON IN PAIN OR SUFFER". Then why she did this to me? I cried and begged her not to marry him rather asked to marry someone else. Not that person because it hurts me a lot. But She didnt. If today, i disclose everything about our relation to everyone, then her married life can lead to dire situation. No one is going to blame me. She will be finished. To get my frustation out or to take revenge i can do this. BUT I CANT. Because i really love her and this is going to be my PLUS Point.I just want to make her realise and feel that what she has done to me. There a lot of relationship where the couple cant get married because of various reasons, but still they are mantaining a good relation ( not physical) besides their married life. These things means a lot. No matter u cant marry yr love one, but still there is someone to support you in yr bad times. I WISH,One day she come to me, stand in front of me and confess that whatever she did it to me was wrong.
Kindly, give me some advice. Am suffering a lot and i know the reason is the drug which i am taking. I know its ill effect but the moment i feel bad or depressed i take it. And this makes me think about her everytime. HELP ME!!Show me some way out..
Love relations start and end.
You are blaming her for the failure of your life, but you are using a faulty method. Using drugs will destroy your life and might be the reason why she does not want to keep contact with you. You need to solve your problems by studying, get a job and find someone to love instead of using drugs. Go to a clinic which specializes in drug addiction treatment to get rid of your addiction.