Awwwwwwwww........I know how it feels. I'm sorry that your heart feels that way. Mine does too. So I know. It's like I know I have to do what's right but my heart aches for him so much. ( I bet you know what I mean) You know what I do........I ask God to give me the strength. Have you heard the song Barely Breathing by Duncan Sheik? You know what..........I think we're worth more than what these men are offering us. You know what I just thought! We probrably value ourselves as much as they value us. :( Not good huh? If you believe in God, pray for the strength, and if you don't believe in God find it within yourself. : ) You have a friend here. Leslie