It is stupid to talk about past lovers if you have a jealous husband. If you want to go on with your marriage, ask your wife if she wants to stay married to you. If she says yes, forgive her everything and forget about it. A bad memory is good for a happy marriage. Never mention her past lover again. It was so many years ago. Try to make your wife happy and do not torture her with your thoughts. Take SSRI medicine, if you cannot handle this situation without help.
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