whats actually is my illness

dear doctor i am in hospital for 3years. my doctor me diognosed with severe deppression and ptsd.but i cant work out whether its the case my symptoms are weired i get racing thoughts in my mind,my appetite was small but now its big, my mood changes, i try sometimes to get quiet alot attention, i am not confident, i hate everything about my self, i feel like addicted to selfharm, sometimes life taking risks delibretley. increase private thoughts,nervous,panic, restless and also weired thoughts sometimes in aloness. can you help me found out what actually is my exact illeness is.

You think too selfdestructively. One can cure depressions by teaching people to think more positively. You focus too much on your negative qualities instead of exploring the good ones. You need a more loving attitude towards yourself and love yourself despite your inperfections. Do you have any hobbies? Many people, who are admitted to psychiatric hospitals, paint, write, help with the daily chores of the hospital or make a contribution in some other way.