I was diagnosed several years ago with bipolar 2, depression, chronic anxiety, and borderline personality disorder. Between my illnesses and the meds I'm on, I had to go on SSI, as I am unable to work. my problem is that the only counseling available to me is at an institution which my mate wants me to sue because of the way I was treated while I was there.( one flew over the cuckoo's nest was a church social compared to this place.) I am desparately need my meds adjusted or changed, but none of my local doctors are willing to do this because of the nature and size of the doses I'm on. I am finding myself getting progressively worse and feel the need for counseling especially after today. A situation arose today which set me of into a crying jag like I havn't been on in years, and my daughter found me in a catatonic state in the middle of the livingroom floor. The crying I could handle on its own, but the catatonic thing really freaked me out. What can i do aside from checking myself back into the hospital which I can't afford?