I am 28 yr old woman.I am going through depression or anxiety not sure.But my mind is under constant tension and due to overthinking I become helpless.I was treated with initial stage schizophrenia during 2011.Since then my life is changed a lot.I had finished my architecture degree 2010. After that I had got job in 2011 where in I was being cheated after working one month and cheated with fault address and faulty appointment letter that I got after working very hard in office.I was being also ragged during that time.It had hit me so hard that I felt weak and later went through schizophrenia.It took me entire 2011 yr to overcome with that.I again join another office in 2011 end with another office.In 2012 I had joined part master again in december 2012 I had mild attack of schizophrenia so I got problems in office the madam of that office thought I was mad but I was under peer pressure of studies and work and I had no one to talk.And some how I completed 3 semester of master by 2013.But I sat home only applying for new jobs as architect.In 2014 I got job but had not completed my master last semester.So that new firm told to take sabbatical yearin 2015.During 2014 I had also collapsed twice once in office and once on road.I had gone unconscious.Now I am jobless for 6 months.I have lost confidence and I get wrong and bad thoughts secondly I have lost confidence to finish master.I have difficulty in approaching professionals.Everyday I am terrified of giving master exam viva which I feel next to impossible.I have been treated with physcatrist but it is not helpful to overcome with my past.I get panic attacks about completing exam which I feel next to impossible nor I am confident to join any other office.I want some one who could understand and take care for me.I really cant live normal life.I always have to take help of my father I have lost my mother during my childhood.I feel terribly lonely and upset and sometimes I keep thinking of suicide.I dont have any normal life its very upsetting I got no one to talk to my feelings or go out.I am mostly at home which depress me more bcos most of my frnds are married and I got no one around.I hardly talk to my father because he is tired of me.Please help I am finding really hard to complete my studies every time I think about all my mind thinks of committing suicide.
Well that is a harsh story and I feel for you.
I think it is important to begin to think of something else.
Something which takes of the pressure to marriage and all the accompanying grown up stuff. Take on Astrology for example it can be good and give you hope.
Hope is all you need to overcome your despair. http://www.astrosofa.com
is a website which has all kind of esoterical themes.
Don't like it try sports, go swimming for example.
All those things are meant to make your thought go in a different direction