Hi Ms. Weird09. First and foremost, I’ll advice you to not do suicide. It will only worsen your situation I promise. I understand your point. I've been there before. I had a problem with my husband who was addicted to some drugs and it really caused me severe depression that I myself would think I am the most unfortunate woman who married a very useless guy. I almost gave up at some point. But a good friend of mind advised me to take my husband to a rehab center and I did. First I was hesitant but when I saw his improvement I was convinced that the idea was good. After a year he went out from the rehab and I could really prove that everything has changed. We are now okay and I regret saying that I am the most unfortunate woman, in fact I got the best husband. So don’t give up. Try sending him to rehab that might help him. Don’t worry I’ll pray for you. God bless.