My father sexually abused my 2 older sisters when I was 14. I lied and told my friends he also abused me. I also let them think he raped us all, when in fact he did not. I feel like I can't breathe with the guilt of lying to my friends. It was 10 years ago, should I tell them I lied? I think I did it because I kind of felt guilty that it didn't happen to me and I felt as upset as if it actually had happened to me. This all hit me last week when my friend told me how strong I was and it dawned on me how very wrong they all are. I feel so ashamed of what I did, I don't know if I can ever tell them the truth. I also feel guilty that they will see my dad as a monster when he is not.
I know this situation is difficult for you. First realize that your caring around the burden of a lie. In order to be free from this you must come clean. It's not for your friends or for your father, this is for you. If your friends are truly there for you, they will understand and still be there for you. Ten years is a long time to cary this guilt. Maybe after you release this, you can then search yourself to see if there is still some unforgiveness in your heart for your father. Complete healing of the soul comes from dealing with the pain, forgive the one who hurt you and forgive yourself. I want you to experience life with out burdens that you no longer have to cary. Good Luck.
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