In August 2011 I fell pregnant with my first child, and have recently moved overseas (from New Zealand to Switzerland) to live with my husband and his family so that my husband can continue to study at University.
I do not regret this decision, however I am struggling a lot with it. All of my friends and family are in New Zealand, I have no friends here and I am struggling to make any as I am only just learning German (the native language here in Switzerland) and when I speak English it makes everyone uncomfortable.
Due to the law here, and the language barrier I am unable to work or study, even part time, therefore I have no money and have to rely completely on my husband and his family to help me raise my baby.
I feel very iscolated and alone here, and it is taking a really big toll on my pregnancy, myself and my relationship with my husband. I struggle with low self esteem and because of these feelings of iscolation I am feeling even worse about myself, and I am doubting my ability and readiness to raise a child. At the beginning of my pregnancy I had no doubt in my mind that I was keeping my baby, however now I am almost 7 months pregnant and I am afraid of how strong my feelings are about not being ready to be a mum and raise a child, especially because of my emotional instability. I love this baby but I am so unsure now.
Don't pressure your self too much. Migrating to another different country is very challenging. Just focus on what is very important for you at this moment which is your pregnancy and your family. And if it helps find a church there that will surely be open to fellowship with you. God bless!
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