HI
I was engaged for 1 year and before the engagment we were together for 2 years which all 3 years in relation ... we had perfect relation but suddenly three months ago my fiance has chnaged his attitude related to me ,, he was angry ,,annoying , ,, without humor,tired ,,,I have tried to talkt to him so many times but he said it was nothing to worrie about ,,, still I had a feeling that everthing was going wrong ,, I was crrying every night..and after 100 attempts one night he told me that before our relation has strted he had sex with a foreign girl from USA which he meet her at the disco and after a short discusion they had sex ,, latter on she told him that she was pregnant and the baby was his ,,, but he didn't want to belive this becuse he considerd her bitch ... after many discussion between them for which I didn't knew it she has send to my fiance the picture of the baby and when he saw the pic. he sad that the baby was like him ...and after few year she told him that the baby was dead becuse she was sick and could not servive ,,, now he finds his self gilty becuase as he thought he could help the baby if he were there ...and he has started to suffer thats why he has chnaged his attitude ,, he has started using Kokain becuse alchohol wasn't helping him ...
When I have heard all these I was SHOCKED ,, i couldn't belive and i asked him who knows about his he told me his sister knows and told him not to tell me becuse he will lose me ... i couldnt belive becuse she is grown up se is 35 years old and she has a doughter ,,, how coudl she hide this from me ....
I was very very shocked ... so I decided to brake up... he disagreed with my decision but I'm not seeing him from more then 1 month ....
Yesterday a saw him from distance and this is the second time i saw him from the bar ... i had such a strong feelings I even couldn't eat ...
I know that all this is wrong : first he has lied to me for 3 years then being with a narkoman is difficult ,,,, I know that I don't have no future with him .. but still I miss the time we had ... somtimes I even belive that one day all the things will be as they where before ... I have to vanish him from my life but I don't know how beuce we live in a small city people keep aksing about him ,, I meet him in road ... I am sow confused and sow willing to servive from all these and countinue with new life ... but HOW ... please could anyone tell me how