I have a boyfriend for more than 3 years. I never expected that he will cheat on me as we are always together... as in every day.. I never doubted him even once... but just this August, we had a fight. On the same day, we spoke to each other, and he told me that he don't want to hurt me.. but things had changed now and he doesnt love me the way he loved me before. I thought I have suffocated him.. but the following day, i tried to surprise him at work but found out that he was going out with this girl who he work with... My whole world collapsed. I tried to follow them, and went somewhere to have breakfast. But I lost them and tried calling my bf, when he answered his phone.. I have asked him where he was and he just simply said that he was with his guy friends having breakfast.. I said he was lying as I saw them and followed them... Immediately he searched for me and found me. We talked and I wanted to break-up with him at that time (although I really don't want to do that 'cause I love him so much)... He said he can change and he advise me to think it over since we've been together for 3 years and he don't want to throw it all away. We went to their house at that instant and we talked he beg for forgiveness and promise that he will change... He even said that he will resign from his work just to prove that he was sorry. He cried infront of me on his bended knees.. I have asked him when it started and he said just last month. They became close and everything went that way, that was his explanation. He said they know what they have right now.. I have asked him if he loves her.. He just said that he has an intense feeling for her than me because what they have was still new. I told him if he want me to stay, he better end what they have.. I went home and I was so devastated. That night, I received a text msg from my bf and he said that he already ended what should have been ended. I tried to contact the other girl but no avail... I just found out that he IM my bf to ask if that's my number and I was trying to reach her. My bf and I talked again and he wanted space, because of what had happened. I am not sure if he want's to get out of our relationship... I cried but he said he's not saying goodbye... and he still loves me.. we still he each other but only once every week... but i don't see any effort on his part anymore.. although he text me when he gets home and call me at work...
I would appreciate if anyone of you could advise me on what to do... I love him so much and I think I can't imagine life without him... It feels like he just waiting for me to say the goodbye word.. But he still say that he loves me.
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