listen girl.. he doesn't love u at all. this is not what u call love.. love i when u want someone to be happy , his/her happiness are way above than yours. love i when you give respect and trust your partner. i broke off with my guy 8 months ago. i was the only one i ve ever loved i am 23 nw . we ve been together for 5 years... he used to abuse my, mistrust me , disrespect me but the moment i realized nothing's above my self respect i just broke off.. u hav to take a stand u have to step out of it.. listen to me you have spent just 6 years... 6 years are nothing you have your whole life to live. if you don't break off now you'll regret after next 6 years ... remember difficult situations need hard and difficult decisions.. one hard decision n your life will be easy.. i had exactly same feelings for my guy.. i thought that i just cannt live without him nt fer a moment bt i am living.. n living a better life. stop hurting yourself cos you are answerable to your God for this.. start thinking girl.. if you take drug it wont help you trust me you are hiding yourself from the situation but the monet you'll wake up you are going to face it agian.. so my advice to u is WAKE UPP.. be brave, have faith in yourelf, that guy doesnt deserve this amount of love and sincerity. please please please help yourself before its too late.. you will have a better life.. start thanking GOD n get out of this relationship n just change this perception that u dnt wanna be alone.. u wont be trust me.. u will have a better life.. its on u make choice nw n be happy or cry n hurt yourelf for rest of the days..
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