Promiscuity...

Okay I have a serious issue and I need it resolved some way or another. I am evidently trying to find myself.

Anyways...I am 24 and I have had 19 sexual partners already. I am not trying to brag, but I am truly a beautiful girl with a lot going for me. I am smart, have a great job and I am very athletic.

I have had a boyfriend (long distance) for 4 years now and I have cheated on him so many times. I have not told him about any of the other men.

Anyhow, I cannot stand not having attention and this is why i think I sleep with guys. Because they usually never stop calling after I do. Even though I have no intention on dumping my amazing boyfriend, I like that these men call. I don't usually call them back, unless I want to see them a few more times.

I seriously do not know what is wrong with me??? I don't think I was sexually abused when I was younger...? Would I remember if I was? I need to know why I act like this and I cannot stop? Help!

I am going to get caught soon and I really do love my boyfriend but he cannot give me the attention that I need.