I am a counselor and there is a child that will listen to no one other than me. This child invited me to sleep over his house, his mother was very pleased that he had made a friend, the following night he told me to sleep in his bed, I said it was fine. While I was trying to go to sleep, he place his hand over my stomach then on my penis, I thought he put his hand by mistake, so I ignored it and fell asleep. When I woke up I felt as if I was with my girlfriend having relations, when It was the boy that was giving me oral sex.
I didn't know what to do, so I didn't talked to him for over a month. Later he came up to me and said "I apologized I will never do anything like that again. Will you forgive me?" As a Christian I forgave him. The next day he invited me over to sleep over to his house. I couldn't refuse because his mom doesn't know what happened. At that night he started to touch me again and I wanted to stop him but I couldn't because it felt good, and after I ejaculated I felt really bad, dirty, disgusted with myself and him and I am afraid to see his face, so I moved somewhere else.
Now my question is, why did I feel bad after something that felt so good with that boy and when I am having relations with my girlfriend I don't feel guilty at all? Also what would you suggest if I ever see that boy again?
A counselor cannot have sex with his clients.
Your feelings of guilt are healthy and direct you in the right way.
There are many things that feel good, although they are wrong. Think of drugs for example.
How old is the boy? Having sex with children is forbidden in most countries. Is it OK with his mother, that you have sex with her child. Do not visit or stay over night in the child's home again.