About a year ago I lived with my sister and was..a very angry person. I resented her..my mother... her kids. She used me to keep her house clean, to give her money..to make herself feel better. At the time, I couldnt control my anger.. and when she made me babysit her children.. I would be very emotionally abusive.. and sometimes I would even push them, shove them, smack them on the butt and once when her youngest was crying.. and screaming and wouldnt stop, I slapped her in the face. I ended up admitting it and my sister hates me now, she kept me around for a while but treated me like some horrible person... told me I was terrible and awful and was going to kill myself or someone else, that I didnt deserve to be loved. I eventually couldnt take it so I ran away, then got kicked out. Im alot happier now but this still kills me... She wont accept my apology..said I didnt mean it, that I dont love anything.. Am I what she sais?? Am I useless?