My mother is a compulsive liar, she doesn't know that we know, but she's been pretending to work at Alaska Airlines as a flight attendant for the last year. When I was 11, I lied to a 16 year old named Kenny about who I was, and my age, online. It developed into a sexual online relationship, never ever met. I lie about my old best friend Jason on a regular basis, even to him I lied, and I lost him for it. Just recently, like a half an hour ago, I stopped a lie I've been living online for the last year. I fell in love with a boy named Jesse, but I lied about EVERYTHING in my life, everything. I had to... Fake Sami's suicide, that's what he thought my name was, to end it and stop hurting him. I hate this and I hate myself for this, and I'd give anything to stop it. I'm almost 17 now, and I can't describe the regret and pain that I have for what I have caused. I never wanted it to get like this. When I was very little, about 6, I was regularly sexually assaulted by my brother, and I don't know if this has anything to do with that. I've never had a real relationship, and I'm a bit over weight, about 50lbs, but I'm working to lose it. I'm just afraid that when I do get a real relationship, I'm going to do the same thing, just like my mother and screw any chance of being happy. I just want to stop, but I don't know how. It just comes out of my mouth, like I can't control it. I don't consciously think to lie to anyone. Please help me.