Well, I just found out that tonight is the last night that Im going to get to spend with the love of my life. He is being shipped back home for work untill further notice. Life is about to get a little hard and lonely. Im praying that this isn't the end but I know that it is a possibility. We've made it apart before when I was in another state for school for about six months but in that time I flew back to see him three times (every other month) then finally moved back. This time is going to be different. I dont have any set dates that I get to look forward too, just the hope of seeing him again. Im not going to just wait for him to come back I've already started talking to someone else and he know's that. I really do love him and hope and pray that we end up together but in the mean time I dont want to waste my life crying into my pillow every night and hate my horrible life. Im going to take this time for myself and do all of the things girls should do when they're single so that if or when we do come back together, Im fully ready to settle down and be with him. Im sure we will still talk every day and stuff but this is deffinately going to be a trial period for us. If we make it through, I know it will be forever but if we dont I'll be prepared to let it go and call it a great memory in time. I hope this is just a test from god and it's just going to prove our love for one another and just saying that we really aren't meant to be. We will see, We will see. My emotions are going wild right now. Im sad he's leaving but at the same time Im oddly happy to be tested. I dont know. I really like to be challenged. It makes me apprieciate the out come or the little successes more. So I guess I can say that Im a little excited to see what the out come is going to be. Well, I should go now cause Im at work but I will definately give updates. And anyone with really good relationships should write so that I can live vicariously through you, hehe. lol. But so yeah, Life is still great as far as I am concerned.. no deaths or illnesses so it's a good day! and lets give thanks and hope tomorrow is just as good. There's a new country song that discribes the way I feel about life right now and I cant think of the name of it but everyone should listen to it and think about their lives and if they dont feel that way about their own life, they should maybe think about what they can do to feel that way again or for the first time... it talks about something like "dad had a close call last year and I got a full week off this year. and sometimes I want what others have and yada yada.." when I find out the name I'll post it. It's a good song and it really makes you realize that life could be so much worse than what it is... so yeah anyway sorry to be a chatty kathy, I'll go now. ttyl.