Hi, I am in very difficult situation. Please help me,
It started 2 years ago,
Ok, first I moved to a place and I met one guy there who is 8 years older than me. He is not married but he is engaged. We were just friends and we used go out together sometimes, like friends, and I know his wife a little bit. They were my neighbours.
As time goes by we really begin to like and atrract each other. I knew that he has a fiance and it was wrong to love him, but i couldn't keep my feeling.
So like before i move from that place he suddenly kissed me and told me that he likes me a lot, so we told each other what we feel. I had a sex with him the other day, I knew i did bad thing sleeping with him, so i thought i will not see him again, but we met several times after i move. But he was telling me that i am young i need a boyfriend, think of your future, but i can't forget him, he is MY FIRST LOVE, but i am not gonna drive crazy and be his mistress, what I am asking is that I just want to love him some how? I just cant let him go, he thinks everythin is over, but for me its not, what should i do?