I'm in love with a person that I met with two years ago. We were never in a relationship, we never even acknowledged that we were attracted to each other but as friends we talked a lot and enjoyed each other's company very much. Since, I was in a relationship at that time I couldn't really say anything but just talking to that person a few times made me realize that I couldn't continue my current relationship and I ended it. The break-up itself was very traumatic since I don't date and that was my first time in a relationship and I was technically engaged to that person to be married. I still feel extremely guilty about breaking that person's heart. I never thought I could be unloyal and it's just a terrible terrible feeling; still I won't go back to that person (eventhough I still care for that person) because I'm still in love with my friend who by the way I haven't any contact with for almost a year now. I'm completely obssesed with my friend. I feel extremely helpless because I tried looking for other people that I might be attraced to but can't seem to find anyone attractive enough to get over my friend. Sometimes the depression's so bad that I would stay in bed for days and everything seems useless and pointless. The only time I can concetrate a little when school's in session. Probably because I like my major and I have lots of friends and I've always done good in school so I guess it keeps me busy and takes my mind off things a bit. But, as soon as I'm alone it's a nightmare. I just can't seem to get over him. I feel completley helpless and it angers me that my friend is probably living a healthy normal happy life when I'm stuck in this emotional warp obssesing over someone that I was never even in a relationship with.