I am a 16 yr old victim who was sexually assault at a young age. I am looking for help and running out of places to look. My options are running out. I seek help out form anyone I can find at this time. I cant sleep at night, I cant be alone at times, my life has changed and I cant control it anymore. I have tried hiding it, forgetting it. But then I all happened yet again. It replaces it self over and over again when the light go out. My reaction towards what happen diff forms others who went through this. I turned to what caused my pain as my escape. I'm not talking about killing myself. I have thought about it, but never will go through with it. I have lost all faith in life. I feel at times like a empty shell lost in my own body. I just want a way out. To forget this all. I have done things since this had happened that I'm not proud of. Things I don't want to get into. I don't want my mom to get into this. I know who she will react. I don't care to hurt her like that. She is all I got now. I don't know who to turn to anymore.