I am 43, married and having an affair with a married man. I have known this man for over 20 years. I first met him at my place of employment in 1986 and through work and occasional outings I have become more attracted and infatuated with him. We have been secretively together about a dozen times now only in one of our vehicles either just to talk, make out or heavy petting. We can only met in a car in fear of someone in the area seeing the two of us together.
My lover is married, as well as myself. I have been married for nearly 24 years and my lover approximately 20. We each have two children. Mine are 19 & 23 years old and his are 15 & 18. We both love our spouses, but yearn for each other every now and then.
We have talked about what it would have been like to have met each other prior to our spouses and know that we would have clicked and possibly gotten married. I really feel for this man as I know he does for me. Is it right to be feeling this way about another man, especially one that is married? I can't help my feelings, they're strong and sincere. Please help me decide what to do. I don't want to stop seeing him. I care for him too much.
Sincerely,
Desparate in love