Re: depression/panic attacks

Hi ,i'm a 41 year old male
I have panic attacks and I also get very depressed
Allot of times I think about things I did in my past that hurt someones fealings and it almost makes me cry ,I try not to think of things but they keep poping into my head
Also my panic attacks seem to be more so when i'm in a possition where I have to hug or say good bye to someone or anything to do with feelings mess me up
I also can't seem to have my blood pressure taken or a hair cut with out gettig an attack
Those are really the only two things that cause an attack then again I guess you can say I like my space, i have to break away when I feel things are to close or personal
My mother told me as a kid a seemed to be a loaner, not sure what she ment because i do remember having friends
I did notice something she said is true though ,she said as a kid I did not like to be kissed ,I would give who ever wanted ta kiss my fore head and guess what she's right, I caught my slef doing that even today
also about six years ago I walked away from my profession as I would get massive panic attacks there at work and also I would throw up before going to work, I realized the profession I had been in for 15 yeas took its toll on me and I was past unhappy ,just knowing what I had to do every day made me sick to my stomich so I guess you could say I had a mental melt down so I had to choose something not dealing with customer / retail so much, i still talk to people over the phone but seems to work better and its a different field with alot less pressure
i have tried several meds for the attacks, lots of different side affects and the ones that do work only work temporary
now im on 300 mg of wellbuteron ,not really sure thats working, was just uped from 150 mg which was not working
tried different doctors ,allot just give meds for the attacks and that's as far as it has ever went
not sure what to do anymore
for some reason I am very distint and sad inside ,i tent to think of sad things at times and cry