parenting is hard!

hi,
I am a mother of a 21 month old Daughter and I am exhausted. Sometimes I think it's a mistake to have kids. I don't want to have any more. its so much work I never thought possible. My husband Thinks that because I don't work outside of the house I have all the time in the world to keep a perfect house clean with food ready made and kid dressed and fed 24/7. I am literally breaking down under the pressure.
Sometimes I get so frustrated that I yell at my daughter, I don't know what to do... I don't want to end up like my mother who always screamed and hit us. I hate being like this.

Why do people think having kids is the most beautiful thing??

Would it help if you had a part time job and day care for your daughter? Also ask your husband to share the housework with you.