I was in therapy for 5 years. During that time I disclosed several cases of sexual abuse starting at the age of 5/6 on up to the abusive nature of my husband. When I left therapy, I felt I had explored and resolved much. It has been 10 years since I terminated therapy and have for the last few years had flashbacks that are clearly not related to the abuse when I was 5 but probably younger. The problem I am having is talking about it. I don't have the words to say what is happening. I don't know who is holding me down. I just see a big hand on my chest that will not let me sit up. I recognize the place where I am, but I don't know who he is. Does it matter who it is?