cutting

i had a problem when i was 13 i started cutting myself to escape emtional pain. i started out by just cutting my arms with knives then as time went on if i didn't have a knife which i usually did because i kept one in my purse for that very reason so i could cut when i needed to this continued until i was 18 and became pregnant. i knew that i didn't want my little girl seeing her mommy with cuts all over her body. so i started dealing with my pain by writing poems i just wrote what i felt or what i didn't feel. but now everytime i look at my arms and legs and see the scars that i inflicted on myself i feel so small. i need help! i am 20 years old now and i thought that i got all the cutting out of my system i have 18 months of not cutting and i really don't wanna go back but it is so hard not to wanna do it again it gave me a feeling of releif everytime i cut myself i don't know what to do plz if you could get back to me i understand there are lots of people out there with bigger problems then mine but if someday you could give me some advice it would be greatly apprecaited i don't want my little girl to see my scars but most of all i don't want her to see the cuts.
thx for your time
Tiffany

The alternative to cutting is feeling the emotional pain instead of escaping it. Cutting is like using drugs. Teach your child that emotional pain is a part of life and that it is not dangerous to be sad or angry for a while.