If college does not suit you, why not go to a occupationally-oriented school or take up an apprenticeship in order for you to learn a trade. Your mother will not be around to support you all your life, so you will have to do it yourself. If you learn a trade that you feel happy with doing you will feel the commitment and satisfaction in life that you need. Consult a doctor and ask him if he feels that you need treatment for depression. Make sure that you exercise at least one hour per day by taking a walk, biking or some other activity. Eat proper food and not junk food. And make your mother happy by helping her with the chores around the house.