I feel like I am going nowhere fast.I have been in the US for the last 13 years.I have had only bad relationships all my life, and have not been able to achieve my goals in life. I have 3 grown children who are doing well. Over the past year or so my life just seem to be going down hill speeedily. I was diagnosed with cervical cancer,I have been unemployed, and I blew it with a man who has been helping me because of the way I have been feeling. I do not sleep at night. I see the sun rise every morning and I cat nap during the day. I feel lonely, sad and I cry all the time. I am doing a good job of hiding it from my friends because they call me to ask advice when they have problems. I have thought about returning to my homeland but that too is a depressing thought.In a nutshell the situation I am in I do not have the luxury of being able to go and get any job. I am limited in my choices and this frustrates me.I just need some one to talk to who might be able to explain to me what I am going through, and why i am so indecisive when it comes to making decisions about my life. I believe I afraid to start over even ashamed.
I cannot afford to pay for this hence the reason for me doing this. I appreciate hearing from you
45 years old and sad.
You have three children who all have succeeded. That is a fantastic accomplishment fo a mother. It could be that you are now experiencing a depression which makes it hard for you to deal with your problems. Antidepressives can make a world of difference to your situation. Try to see a doctor. To change ones life to the better one has to work on finding solutions and that is very hard as long as one suffers from a depression.
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