Hey I'm having trouble on deciding wheather or not I am totally messed up. Ok so
I have this brother and we've always had a really close relationship and we were
more considered as friends than brother/sister. I love spending time with him
because we're just that close. So two months ago I spent the night at his
apartment which was not really a big deal because I always spent the night with
him whenever i could. But that night was different. We watched porn cuz that's
what we usually do before we go to bed (wierd relationship i know) But he told
me that he had a bonner and he aplogised about it. No big deal. Then he started
to put the moves on me. He put his hand on my inner thigh but he kept on
aplogising. The wierd thing is i started to get hot and let him do it. Then he
told me that it was totally up to me if i wanted to go further and i said yes!
So things were wierd at first but then when we started having sex I didn't mind
at all. I liked it a lot. I was sooo into it. After he had regrets about what we
did and felt really bad. But I didn't. Since that night we've been screwing a
lot. Every time i go to his house now we end up having sex. He doesn't have any
regrets now and I'm totally loving it. Am I messed up or what? I need your
advice badly. He said if anyone found out (like in the family) he'd kill
himself. What should i do?