i am desparate for help

I was diagnosed several years ago with bipolar 2, depression, chronic anxiety, and borderline personality disorder. Between my illnesses and the meds I'm on, I had to go on SSI, as I am unable to work. my problem is that the only counseling available to me is at an institution which my mate wants me to sue because of the way I was treated while I was there.( one flew over the cuckoo's nest was a church social compared to this place.) I am desparately need my meds adjusted or changed, but none of my local doctors are willing to do this because of the nature and size of the doses I'm on. I am finding myself getting progressively worse and feel the need for counseling especially after today. A situation arose today which set me of into a crying jag like I havn't been on in years, and my daughter found me in a catatonic state in the middle of the livingroom floor. The crying I could handle on its own, but the catatonic thing really freaked me out. What can i do aside from checking myself back into the hospital which I can't afford?

Jag får ofta patienter vars livssituation verkar hopplös och förtvivlad vid första påseende. Min första fråga är, om det finns något de kan göra. Det finns det alltid. När de har gjort detta första, har de fått en något annorlunda överblick över sin situation. Genom att ständigt fråga, om det finns något man kan göra som förbättrar patientens livssituation och uppmuntra henne att göra det, kan man så småningom förändra ett liv till det bättre.