I am a person who puts everyone before myself....But lately it has gotten out of control. I have been ignoring my own feelings to help others and the stress of it all is starting to drive me insane.
I never share my feelings anymore because I care to much about other people who are upset, and it has gotten to the point that if someone asks me if I am upset I cant even tell them why. I literally cant form the words and force them out of my mouth.
I know pushing my feelings away is having an effect on me, but I can't seem to care for myself no matter how hard I try. I have talked to people around me and they have told me that I never show any emotion, I always have a neutral face and if there is even a hint of emotion on my face they know something extremely bad has happened. And I have been losing some close friends because they think I dont trust them enough to say whats wrong when I really just cant make myself say it no matter how bad I want to.
I love helping others and I always have, but I cant keep taking on everyones problems plus my own and try and focus on other things like school and such. I cant handle the stress. But it seems no matter how hard I try, I cant see someone upset and not act. Not to mention that I just feel like my feelings are unimportant and I can wait until other people are happy to think about myself. I need a way to handle everything and any suggestions would be amazing.