There's something wrong with me

Hi, I'm not sure where else to turn but there is something seriously wrong with me.

I consider myself a rational person, yet I'm having some serious issues coping with my own insecurities.

For as long as I can remember, I've never really had too much luck with women, even in college. Most relationships if they can be called that would end with me being rejected, ignored, or flat out hated(usually by my own fault).

I'd like to say that I've tried all different approaches; however the fact that it's taken me so long to find someone has seriously fucked me up-mentally. It's come to the point where I feel as though I can't even approach women, out of hatred(maybe even fear).

My friends don't understand it, I don't understand it, and I'm quickly approaching the point where I'm just going to fucking give up.